I'm too tired to express my demise of you bothering me 24/7.
SPM examination is not the ticket to everything in life, sure it can improve your career and etc. But try placing yourself into my shoes and you can feel how bad it hurts.
I have already tried avoiding by all means, I don't mind being ignored nor isolated.
I don't want that hope placed upon me.
Studying alone can't help you in the examination. Can't you see it through my eyes?
The pain, the annoyed and irritated soul?
Cause your actions and speech had made me believe that if i studied 24 hours a day you will claim that my 24 hours is equivalent to 24 minutes -_-
Lets go through a flash back.
I placed my pen down after 1-2 hours of add maths or Bio.
Then, you burst in and said you played computer for 1-2 hours now go study something ?
What else do you wan from me?
I tell you honestly I don't want to be a doctor because I gave up on Bio, you scolded me for telling the truth?
You wanted to play cold shoulder with me but you lose first and broke the silence first.
I hope it won't come to a situation where I would run away from home.
Just leave me alone, M.
I feel like moving out after SPM examination.
Just stop bugging me over SPM examination.
I already a teenager, who've wasted 17 years of his life doing everything you told me to.
I just want to live my life my way.
...
Friday, October 16, 2009
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Isolation In A Dark Chamber; Ease My Pain.
"Put your back into it; stop whining.Your just plain lazy!"shouted M to me.
Feeling overly exhausted, I dropped everything and was left flabbergasted.
"What, you got a lousy C6 for three papers, Add Maths, Bio and History?" shouted M at me once more.
"But I gave everything that I had into the examination and managed to score at least 8As out of 11 subjects. Doesn't that matter to you?"I defended.
Why must you look at the negative side and criticize me from that particular angle?
If you, do not trust me then why do you even bother asking me then when you decided to investigate the truth since my words are mere crap to you?
I lied because I didn't want to spoil your mood for the day. It would be hard for you to actually get mad on that day.
I admit, lying is wrong but have you have paused to consider the stress that you placed on me?
"Go study Bio!" M told me just as I reached home after an exhausting day on Sunday.
I reached home about 08.00 and the first thing wasn't a 'HI' nor 'How Was Your Day?'
but it was 'Go Study Bio'.
Kudos! If I wasn't supposed to die young then you contributed to it then.
Look at my hair. Tell me, can't you see the number of white hairs on my head?
I wanted to study in my room but somehow you don't trust me to do so.
Enough is said and heard, if I were to hate studying, I know who to blame.
Now, it's about the day.
5th October,2009.
I was tired on the 4th, so I slept at 09.00pm
When i woke up at 02.00am, I realised that I received an sms, greeting me for the day.
It was a friend whom I have not contacted in months.
Then friends who I'm not close to even did the same.
But my closes and dearest person in my life could not just wished me within the 24 hours and he is D.
I gave D 24 hours to do so but nevertheless he failed.
So did E, E failed to do so although she remembered at first but forgotten.
Thanks I guess?
I would trade anything that I have just to hear both of them say those two words to me.
Well, now there's no way they can make it matter anymore.
Next year perhaps, if I'm still alive.
Who knows.
I hate this damned Life.
Boredom, Loneliness and Pressure
Though there is these friends of mine who never let me down and followed me where ever I go at any time.They are Misery and Sorrow.
Emo much?
I don't care.
Life is dissapointing enough
Signing off.
Feeling overly exhausted, I dropped everything and was left flabbergasted.
"What, you got a lousy C6 for three papers, Add Maths, Bio and History?" shouted M at me once more.
"But I gave everything that I had into the examination and managed to score at least 8As out of 11 subjects. Doesn't that matter to you?"I defended.
Why must you look at the negative side and criticize me from that particular angle?
If you, do not trust me then why do you even bother asking me then when you decided to investigate the truth since my words are mere crap to you?
I lied because I didn't want to spoil your mood for the day. It would be hard for you to actually get mad on that day.
I admit, lying is wrong but have you have paused to consider the stress that you placed on me?
"Go study Bio!" M told me just as I reached home after an exhausting day on Sunday.
I reached home about 08.00 and the first thing wasn't a 'HI' nor 'How Was Your Day?'
but it was 'Go Study Bio'.
Kudos! If I wasn't supposed to die young then you contributed to it then.
Look at my hair. Tell me, can't you see the number of white hairs on my head?
I wanted to study in my room but somehow you don't trust me to do so.
Enough is said and heard, if I were to hate studying, I know who to blame.
Now, it's about the day.
5th October,2009.
I was tired on the 4th, so I slept at 09.00pm
When i woke up at 02.00am, I realised that I received an sms, greeting me for the day.
It was a friend whom I have not contacted in months.
Then friends who I'm not close to even did the same.
But my closes and dearest person in my life could not just wished me within the 24 hours and he is D.
I gave D 24 hours to do so but nevertheless he failed.
So did E, E failed to do so although she remembered at first but forgotten.
Thanks I guess?
I would trade anything that I have just to hear both of them say those two words to me.
Well, now there's no way they can make it matter anymore.
Next year perhaps, if I'm still alive.
Who knows.
I hate this damned Life.
Boredom, Loneliness and Pressure
Though there is these friends of mine who never let me down and followed me where ever I go at any time.They are Misery and Sorrow.
Emo much?
I don't care.
Life is dissapointing enough
Signing off.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Chocolate !!!
Chocolate contains alkaloids such as theobromine and phenethylamine, which have physiological effects on the body. It has been linked to serotonin levels in the brain. Scientists claim that chocolate, eaten in moderation, can lower blood pressure.
Besides that,researchers have found that chocolate can make some people who are prone to depression less anxious and less irritable. Furthermore, a study of 3,000 people by the Black Dog Institute found 45 per cent of people with depression craved chocolate.
"Of those 45 per cent, 60 per cent found that the chocolate improved their mood when they were depressed," Joanne Crawford, study co-author said.
Researchers found that among the depressed, those who were anxious or worriers were more likely to benefit from the sweet treats.
They believe it is the endorphins and opoids in chocolate which make people feel more relaxed.
"The opoids are morphine-like and lower pain and that also flows through into mental wellbeing," Professor Gordon Parker from the Black Dog Institute said.
Swimming star John Konrads battled depression, often turning to chocolate when he felt low.
"I thought it was a pick-me-up, almost like a cup of coffee, but to hear that it's a soother makes sense to me with hindsight," he said.
While it is too early for doctors to start prescribing chocolate for depression, this study does prove that it has tangible benefits in fighting mood disorders.
"I think this will be reassuring to many people who will say this just merely confirms what I have found out over the years," Professor Parker said.
The only caveat is that even as an anti-depressant, when it comes to chocolate, moderation is the key.
Therefore, chocolate should only be taken in moderation but if your family bans chocolate for no apparent reason, direct them here to defend chocolate for the happiness it can and will bring to all of humanity.
Signing off,
Lol.
Besides that,researchers have found that chocolate can make some people who are prone to depression less anxious and less irritable. Furthermore, a study of 3,000 people by the Black Dog Institute found 45 per cent of people with depression craved chocolate.
"Of those 45 per cent, 60 per cent found that the chocolate improved their mood when they were depressed," Joanne Crawford, study co-author said.
Researchers found that among the depressed, those who were anxious or worriers were more likely to benefit from the sweet treats.
They believe it is the endorphins and opoids in chocolate which make people feel more relaxed.
"The opoids are morphine-like and lower pain and that also flows through into mental wellbeing," Professor Gordon Parker from the Black Dog Institute said.
Swimming star John Konrads battled depression, often turning to chocolate when he felt low.
"I thought it was a pick-me-up, almost like a cup of coffee, but to hear that it's a soother makes sense to me with hindsight," he said.
While it is too early for doctors to start prescribing chocolate for depression, this study does prove that it has tangible benefits in fighting mood disorders.
"I think this will be reassuring to many people who will say this just merely confirms what I have found out over the years," Professor Parker said.
The only caveat is that even as an anti-depressant, when it comes to chocolate, moderation is the key.
Therefore, chocolate should only be taken in moderation but if your family bans chocolate for no apparent reason, direct them here to defend chocolate for the happiness it can and will bring to all of humanity.
Signing off,
Lol.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Everthing Atleast Once
Su Goi!!!!
Kawaai desu!!!!
These were the things that came up to my mind went this guy came up to our table and sat with us;he told us this. Watashiwa Soh Fook.
Ngo Dui lam jor tiu yao
yi kar yew jiok chou
Which meant, he killed someone and needed cash to travel to somewhere to lay low.
Well. He needed cash from us but he wasn't going to ask from us nor snatch it.
Try and guess how he wanted the money.
Yes, by now you should know.
He...
is...
a...
robber...
Bingo!!
I was robbed!
I meant the three of us were robbed.
Where you might ask?
Well, we were robbed at home ....
Duh...
Somewhere in public
It was at Mc Donald near Mydin at the 2nd floor.
The feeling was Su Goi!!
You think so too?
Just pulling your leg(s).
It was horrible.
We were baffled.
I wanted to fight him but ....
same story from almost everyone; What if he has AIDs? or He has a knife/weapon?
Fine, sat there helplessly as three teenagers got blackmailed.
He asked us how much we got?
I lied with RM2-3 while Vince and Jun Bin said RM10.
He took their money and left.
Note this, he said he will return the money.
Lol.When pigs fly perhaps.
We left that Mc Donald and went to a nearby Mc Donald.
Guess who we met again as the cashier there.
+_=
We
saw
...
a plain cashier standing there asking us for our order.
Lol. This is just a joke.
We sat there real scared in case we might bump into him again or in this case him bumping into us. We ate and decided to leave that place quickly to find Vivian because Vince needed to see her to get something back.
Thank God Soh Fook didn't follow us.
We kept making fun of his name. Lol.
Then, anytime some taxi or car pass by we kept joking about the driver being Soh Fook coming back to return our money.
Yeah, fat hopes.
I mean what is wrong with society nowadays.
By the way, you should read what our parents said to us.
Jun Bin's Dad: LOL!!! LOL!!! LOL!!!
-my reaction after hearing the reply was -_-0
Vince
-No comment
Finally, I saved the best for the last.
My Mum: You bunch of cowards! Can't even take down one man? Pathetic!
That was my version. Lol
The real one is this one.
"You should have screamed!"
"Noob kia!"
"Throw something at him!"
"Quickly run!"
-reply for no.1, He might pull a weapon out.
-reply for no.2, I would laugh myself to dead if she said that.
-reply for no.3, same like no.1
-reply for no.4, he had an accomplice waiting at the stairs or downstairs.
But if you were in our shoes, what would you have done?
Choice A
Surrender
-coward but smart-
Choice B
Fight Back
-brave but stupid-
Choice C
Scream
-coward and stupid-
Choice D
Run
-coward,smart but no loyalty to friends-
Choice E
Talk Some Sense Into Him
-stupidest move;he planned to rob you, do you think he has any moral value left?-
Choice F
Deny Having Money
-better than choice E but not good because your giving him the chance to search you-
Lol.I chose choice A and E.
Although I almost picked choice B.
We didn't really thought of choice D.
Lol.
So there you have it the story of how three teenagers gotrobbed blackmailed by one guy who may actually be blowing water.
Come to think of it, we were pathetic but smart.
Signing off.
Oh yeah, we even joked about this.
Picture this.
We meeting Soh Fook there in Mc Donald again.
And our response will be like this,"You again!!!"
If happens again
"Oh, How are you?"
Finnally
"Sit down,Let me buy you a drink."
Lol, right?
Well really signing off now.
AngelofSorrow
Kawaai desu!!!!
These were the things that came up to my mind went this guy came up to our table and sat with us;he told us this. Watashiwa Soh Fook.
Ngo Dui lam jor tiu yao
yi kar yew jiok chou
Which meant, he killed someone and needed cash to travel to somewhere to lay low.
Well. He needed cash from us but he wasn't going to ask from us nor snatch it.
Try and guess how he wanted the money.
Yes, by now you should know.
He...
is...
a...
robber...
Bingo!!
I was robbed!
I meant the three of us were robbed.
Where you might ask?
Well, we were robbed at home ....
Duh...
Somewhere in public
It was at Mc Donald near Mydin at the 2nd floor.
The feeling was Su Goi!!
You think so too?
Just pulling your leg(s).
It was horrible.
We were baffled.
I wanted to fight him but ....
same story from almost everyone; What if he has AIDs? or He has a knife/weapon?
Fine, sat there helplessly as three teenagers got blackmailed.
He asked us how much we got?
I lied with RM2-3 while Vince and Jun Bin said RM10.
He took their money and left.
Note this, he said he will return the money.
Lol.When pigs fly perhaps.
We left that Mc Donald and went to a nearby Mc Donald.
Guess who we met again as the cashier there.
+_=
We
saw
...
a plain cashier standing there asking us for our order.
Lol. This is just a joke.
We sat there real scared in case we might bump into him again or in this case him bumping into us. We ate and decided to leave that place quickly to find Vivian because Vince needed to see her to get something back.
Thank God Soh Fook didn't follow us.
We kept making fun of his name. Lol.
Then, anytime some taxi or car pass by we kept joking about the driver being Soh Fook coming back to return our money.
Yeah, fat hopes.
I mean what is wrong with society nowadays.
By the way, you should read what our parents said to us.
Jun Bin's Dad: LOL!!! LOL!!! LOL!!!
-my reaction after hearing the reply was -_-0
Vince
-No comment
Finally, I saved the best for the last.
My Mum: You bunch of cowards! Can't even take down one man? Pathetic!
That was my version. Lol
The real one is this one.
"You should have screamed!"
"Noob kia!"
"Throw something at him!"
"Quickly run!"
-reply for no.1, He might pull a weapon out.
-reply for no.2, I would laugh myself to dead if she said that.
-reply for no.3, same like no.1
-reply for no.4, he had an accomplice waiting at the stairs or downstairs.
But if you were in our shoes, what would you have done?
Choice A
Surrender
-coward but smart-
Choice B
Fight Back
-brave but stupid-
Choice C
Scream
-coward and stupid-
Choice D
Run
-coward,smart but no loyalty to friends-
Choice E
Talk Some Sense Into Him
-stupidest move;he planned to rob you, do you think he has any moral value left?-
Choice F
Deny Having Money
-better than choice E but not good because your giving him the chance to search you-
Lol.I chose choice A and E.
Although I almost picked choice B.
We didn't really thought of choice D.
Lol.
So there you have it the story of how three teenagers got
Come to think of it, we were pathetic but smart.
Signing off.
Oh yeah, we even joked about this.
Picture this.
We meeting Soh Fook there in Mc Donald again.
And our response will be like this,"You again!!!"
If happens again
"Oh, How are you?"
Finnally
"Sit down,Let me buy you a drink."
Lol, right?
Well really signing off now.
AngelofSorrow
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Purpose of Life? I need To Know
Bored
Aimless
Pointless
Disorientated
Unsure
All these were/are words that pop-up into my mind.
Firstly, apologizing to Vin Tsen
"Dude, I ran out of credit as well."
Back to topic.
Purpose of Life.
Question 1
"Why am I here?"
Choice A
Your parents were the reason you are here.
-True right?
Choice B
To glorify God in which we are made in the image of him where we exist to honour him and follow his way and do things which are pleasant in his eyes.
-True also. But from a Christian's point of view.
Choice C
I don't know. Your There because your there. (La)!
-If your not sure then this should be your answer.
Choice D
Karma; your reincarnated.
-For other religions who believe in this.
Well my answer would be a combination of A,B and C.
But why am I here?
This question isn't solved yet.
I go to a good school; MBSMonkey Boys' School
I mean Mehthodist Boys' School.
I got things like clothes, handphone, accessories, and computer with a laptop.
Yet, I'm not that happy with my life.
Things just don't feel right.
I wanted to go to W.H.C. today.
But my mum stopped me from going out.
Finally told her that I wanted to meet David in Parkson.
She drove me there.
Car--->Parkson
Me---->Parkson
Me-------->Cab ; from Parkson
Cab------->WHC
Pathetic right?
Just want to go out only but I have to resort to this.
If your thinking that I'm pathetic; try being in my shoes?
And we will see who has the last laugh!
I came up with this on my way there.
Disorientated+Emo = Steven
Disorientated+Emo+Bored = Steven Boo
Disorientated+Emo+Bored+Misery = Steven Boo Chuwen
Steven Boo Chuwen = Me
Conclusion,
I = Disorientated+Emo+Bored+Misery
Simplify it,
I = Disorientated+Emo+Misery+Bored
Almost spelled D.U.M.B.
except for the 'E' Lol.
Claps x3
Followed by Standing Ovation.
And finally words of relieve,
"That Idiot (ME) realised he's Dumb or in this case Demb.
Yeah.
Continuing back the story.
I went there to see my friends.
But,
I reached there and sat beside her.
We chatted for like 1 hour ++.
It was awspiring. ps; refer 1st post about WHC to find out what's awspiring.
Then, I blundered.
-Blundered is a term where you describe the situation where you made an error in your interpretation or strategy. Commonly used in Chess games.
Lol.
Ps. I'm not a walking dictionary nor did I memorised a dictionary.
I made her teared her eyes.
At that point, if she were to cry, God knows what I will do.
She teared her eyes and I felt like crying to.
Seeing her so sad brings me back sad memories of the past.
By the way, it turned out better I think so I will end this story here.
Another thing that caught my mind is Regret.
The word Regret is a very powerful word which affects everyone's life.
Regret.
A feeling of grief over an action,speech or anything;whether the effect is onto self or others.
-_-0
Regret and emo come's in a pair.
Did you notice that?
Well, I did!!
It was in the past where my mum would scold me and stuff, or even give me the cold shoulder treatment where I would regret my actions or speech.
While regretting, I tend to be emo without realising it.
Conclusion; Emo accompanies regret.
But why am I such an emo person?
Well,
According to Psychological analysis.
A person becomes Emo because of biotic factors in his surrounding which includes childhood experiences, life style and values instilled in him.
According to Philosophers' quote,
A person becomes sad when he or she allows himself or herself to be that way.
But what if I am emo because it is me?
That I was borned EMO?
Lol.
Note the title of my blog.
Misery Follow's Me.
Won't it be cool?
You heard about the Angel of Death?
Well, I am the Angel of Grief.
"Su Goi!!!"
Lol
By the way, my problems accumulate because I let them.
I don't want to let go of the past.
Why?
I don't want to forget things that occurred in the past.
I have never opened up so frankly with anyone, not even my mother until today.
"Arigato."
for letting me lose some of my emo'ness.
By the way, my blog isn't that good.
You should read blogs from innit.nuffnang.com.my.
Those blogs there are cool.
But if you do read those blogs there,
Do visit mine to show your support?
Without friends, I am nothing but a trapped canary in a cage.
With all of you, I can spread my wings and fly away into freedom.
Fly!!!
Lol
Well, that's all for now.
Good luck to those taking SPM trial.
And May God Bless those who had their exams.
And to Evelyn, may God bless you on your Add Maths.
Seriously don't want to see you Emo about that.
Moreover, Emo is my thing and you can't have it.
Live Life With No Regrets.
AngelofGrief ;(
Aimless
Pointless
Disorientated
Unsure
All these were/are words that pop-up into my mind.
Firstly, apologizing to Vin Tsen
"Dude, I ran out of credit as well."
Back to topic.
Purpose of Life.
Question 1
"Why am I here?"
Choice A
Your parents were the reason you are here.
-True right?
Choice B
To glorify God in which we are made in the image of him where we exist to honour him and follow his way and do things which are pleasant in his eyes.
-True also. But from a Christian's point of view.
Choice C
I don't know. Your There because your there. (La)!
-If your not sure then this should be your answer.
Choice D
Karma; your reincarnated.
-For other religions who believe in this.
Well my answer would be a combination of A,B and C.
But why am I here?
This question isn't solved yet.
I go to a good school; MBS
I mean Mehthodist Boys' School.
I got things like clothes, handphone, accessories, and computer with a laptop.
Yet, I'm not that happy with my life.
Things just don't feel right.
I wanted to go to W.H.C. today.
But my mum stopped me from going out.
Finally told her that I wanted to meet David in Parkson.
She drove me there.
Car--->Parkson
Me---->Parkson
Me-------->Cab ; from Parkson
Cab------->WHC
Pathetic right?
Just want to go out only but I have to resort to this.
If your thinking that I'm pathetic; try being in my shoes?
And we will see who has the last laugh!
I came up with this on my way there.
Disorientated+Emo = Steven
Disorientated+Emo+Bored = Steven Boo
Disorientated+Emo+Bored+Misery = Steven Boo Chuwen
Steven Boo Chuwen = Me
Conclusion,
I = Disorientated+Emo+Bored+Misery
Simplify it,
I = Disorientated+Emo+Misery+Bored
Almost spelled D.U.M.B.
except for the 'E' Lol.
Claps x3
Followed by Standing Ovation.
And finally words of relieve,
"That Idiot (ME) realised he's Dumb or in this case Demb.
Yeah.
Continuing back the story.
I went there to see my friends.
But,
I reached there and sat beside her.
We chatted for like 1 hour ++.
It was awspiring. ps; refer 1st post about WHC to find out what's awspiring.
Then, I blundered.
-Blundered is a term where you describe the situation where you made an error in your interpretation or strategy. Commonly used in Chess games.
Lol.
Ps. I'm not a walking dictionary nor did I memorised a dictionary.
I made her teared her eyes.
At that point, if she were to cry, God knows what I will do.
She teared her eyes and I felt like crying to.
Seeing her so sad brings me back sad memories of the past.
By the way, it turned out better I think so I will end this story here.
Another thing that caught my mind is Regret.
The word Regret is a very powerful word which affects everyone's life.
Regret.
A feeling of grief over an action,speech or anything;whether the effect is onto self or others.
-_-0
Regret and emo come's in a pair.
Did you notice that?
Well, I did!!
It was in the past where my mum would scold me and stuff, or even give me the cold shoulder treatment where I would regret my actions or speech.
While regretting, I tend to be emo without realising it.
Conclusion; Emo accompanies regret.
But why am I such an emo person?
Well,
According to Psychological analysis.
A person becomes Emo because of biotic factors in his surrounding which includes childhood experiences, life style and values instilled in him.
According to Philosophers' quote,
A person becomes sad when he or she allows himself or herself to be that way.
But what if I am emo because it is me?
That I was borned EMO?
Lol.
Note the title of my blog.
Misery Follow's Me.
Won't it be cool?
You heard about the Angel of Death?
Well, I am the Angel of Grief.
"Su Goi!!!"
Lol
By the way, my problems accumulate because I let them.
I don't want to let go of the past.
Why?
I don't want to forget things that occurred in the past.
I have never opened up so frankly with anyone, not even my mother until today.
"Arigato."
for letting me lose some of my emo'ness.
By the way, my blog isn't that good.
You should read blogs from innit.nuffnang.com.my.
Those blogs there are cool.
But if you do read those blogs there,
Do visit mine to show your support?
Without friends, I am nothing but a trapped canary in a cage.
With all of you, I can spread my wings and fly away into freedom.
Fly!!!
Lol
Well, that's all for now.
Good luck to those taking SPM trial.
And May God Bless those who had their exams.
And to Evelyn, may God bless you on your Add Maths.
Seriously don't want to see you Emo about that.
Moreover, Emo is my thing and you can't have it.
Live Life With No Regrets.
AngelofGrief ;(
Monday, August 17, 2009
Disorientated
It was supposed to be a beautiful day but it turned out wrong.
Just like the saying goes, do not count your chicks until they hatched.
Don't be to sure of something until it is firmly gained or grasped.
I woke up earlier on Sunday.
Surprisingly I did not feel sluggish but I felt energized and dashed to the bathroom to clean up.
Then, the hard part.
Choosing what to wear.
Ps. My wardrobe was like a jungle of clothes and it was quite hard to find the nice ones which was among the normal clothes.
Pissed off that I could not locate the clothes that I wanted I went to my second "wardrobe" and took a set of clothes from there and put them on.
Then, it was time for me to pack my bag.
Placed the most important book inside with Physics and stationeries.
Ran down the stairs and saw my mum sitting there.
I told her I was leaving but she saidNO yes but drink a glass of milk first.
I was like -_-0
Fine, I took the carton and pour milk into my mouth until I feel as though i drank one cup.
Ps. I didn't touch the top with my lips nor mouth.
She didn't realise; for if she did, I would get another lecture from her.
But why not?
Just don't touch it and don't spill.
You save on water to wash the glass that you were supposed to use. LOl; Joke.
Was going out till I realised, "where's my handphone?"
I ran up to get it.
Went down again to go out.
Then, "crap" I forgot my wallet.
Ran up to look for it.
Find - Find - Find
Can't find.
Mum'"Can't find then no need to go!" -_-0
Finally found it.
In my bag, in a zipped compartment. -_-00
Ok, time to go.
Wait I forgot something again.
-_-000
Oops, realised i had my watch on my wrist already.
For the ... time, I'm leaving and decided,to go now.
House ---> Bus Stop;09.15 am already.
I was +_-
No difference from last week.
Later actually.
So I thought about it carefully.
Choice A
Take bus
Bus Stop ---> Bus Station
20 mins
Interchange
Bus Station ---> Sunway Pyramid
30 mins
Walk
Sunway Pyramid ---> W.H.C.
10 mins
Others ; Traffic jam and passengers
20 mins
Total time: 1 hour and 20 mins
9.15+ 1 hour and 20 mins = 10.35 ++ am
(LATE)
Choice B
Taxi
Sure reach on time 100%
Conclusion
Choice B was taken due to lack of time.
Reach there early.
Felt left out.
Read newspaper and realised MU vs Birmingham.
Btw. MU won 1-0
But Liverpool lose to Totenham. Superfragelisticexpealledocius,which also means Wow
PS; spelling might be wrong.
But Liverpool lose, the fact that they lose their first game.
Back to the main point.
I went through Main service.
Today Pastor Isac was there.
Wonderful speech.
I sat infront because I was early.
Then. realised, Evelyn and Emmely were sitting behind.
Should I reserve sits for you infront next time?
Then, lunch.
As expected, budgetting was my main issue here.
But fatigue was getting on me.
Bought 3 cups of coffee to actually get rid of sleepiness.
But Ben's grandmom came and gave me a meal again.
My heart ache to see such kindness showered upon me.
Please don't be too nice because the more I grow attached to something, the harder the dissapointment is.
That's why I don't really socialise all out unless there's a gurantee we can meet continuously.
Then, I told her that I felt that it wasn't right to take things for granted.
She said it's ok and said it was a blessing from God.
I wanted to cry there and then but I restrained myself from doing so.
Then, it rained.
I felt like going back before it became too heavy.
Justin offered to send me home and send me to W.H.C. on Sunday.
I was >.<
your too nice man.
But i don't want to trouble any one.
It may have been your way to help people
But it's my fault actually; my family's way of life
There's no free lunch in this world.
And this was my way of life
until you all proved me wrong.
My principle of life was wrong.
Such kindness do exist in this world.
Then, Evelyn said she can't stay for Youth.
Which she contradicted herself later. Lol.
I, then left.
It rained when I was half way there and I got drenched.
Yeah, that's punishment? For being rude?
I will take it for my misconduct and behaviour.
Took a cab and wondered.
What is this feeling that is inside me?
I prayed for an answer.
When I was there dazing off, it struck me that this feeling is real.
But, who am I kidding.
NO way it would happen.
Pessimistic attitude.
Realised this today. (MONDAY)
Was listening to "When I'm Gone" by Simple Plan.
Then this phrase caught my attention.
"Misery Needs Company, so So... Long when I'm Gone..."
Yes,I agree to that.
Misery needs company and that's me.
And So Long to all of you if I don't see you all next week and for some time.
Emo...
Then Eric spoke to me about Family, Associates and Kindness.
He made me realised this.
People who are kind are rare.
People who help you are good.
People help you when things are good.
But will people help you when they are facing problems themselves?
I said,"Yes"
He said,"Don't be naive"
Me -_-0
I constantly disobey my parents' by going there.
He asked,"Which is more important family or God?"
I was perplexed by that Question.
Couldn't answer.
HE asked me this,"You enjoy yourself with people from W.H.C. right?But if you were to choose between them and your family?
I replied,"We are one big family there.
His reply,"Blood is thicker then water for family but those people have no blood relation to you.
What can I do?
Disobey my family members? or Stop going to W.H.C?
We must honour our parents and God! as said by God.
But if you must choose between one side?
FollowedbyMisery
Good bye.
Just like the saying goes, do not count your chicks until they hatched.
Don't be to sure of something until it is firmly gained or grasped.
I woke up earlier on Sunday.
Surprisingly I did not feel sluggish but I felt energized and dashed to the bathroom to clean up.
Then, the hard part.
Choosing what to wear.
Ps. My wardrobe was like a jungle of clothes and it was quite hard to find the nice ones which was among the normal clothes.
Pissed off that I could not locate the clothes that I wanted I went to my second "wardrobe" and took a set of clothes from there and put them on.
Then, it was time for me to pack my bag.
Placed the most important book inside with Physics and stationeries.
Ran down the stairs and saw my mum sitting there.
I told her I was leaving but she said
I was like -_-0
Fine, I took the carton and pour milk into my mouth until I feel as though i drank one cup.
Ps. I didn't touch the top with my lips nor mouth.
She didn't realise; for if she did, I would get another lecture from her.
But why not?
Just don't touch it and don't spill.
You save on water to wash the glass that you were supposed to use. LOl; Joke.
Was going out till I realised, "where's my handphone?"
I ran up to get it.
Went down again to go out.
Then, "crap" I forgot my wallet.
Ran up to look for it.
Find - Find - Find
Can't find.
Mum'"Can't find then no need to go!" -_-0
Finally found it.
In my bag, in a zipped compartment. -_-00
Ok, time to go.
Wait I forgot something again.
-_-000
Oops, realised i had my watch on my wrist already.
For the ... time, I'm leaving and decided,to go now.
House ---> Bus Stop;09.15 am already.
I was +_-
No difference from last week.
Later actually.
So I thought about it carefully.
Choice A
Take bus
Bus Stop ---> Bus Station
20 mins
Interchange
Bus Station ---> Sunway Pyramid
30 mins
Walk
Sunway Pyramid ---> W.H.C.
10 mins
Others ; Traffic jam and passengers
20 mins
Total time: 1 hour and 20 mins
9.15+ 1 hour and 20 mins = 10.35 ++ am
(LATE)
Choice B
Taxi
Sure reach on time 100%
Conclusion
Choice B was taken due to lack of time.
Reach there early.
Felt left out.
Read newspaper and realised MU vs Birmingham.
Btw. MU won 1-0
But Liverpool lose to Totenham. Superfragelisticexpealledocius,which also means Wow
PS; spelling might be wrong.
But Liverpool lose, the fact that they lose their first game.
Back to the main point.
I went through Main service.
Today Pastor Isac was there.
Wonderful speech.
I sat infront because I was early.
Then. realised, Evelyn and Emmely were sitting behind.
Should I reserve sits for you infront next time?
Then, lunch.
As expected, budgetting was my main issue here.
But fatigue was getting on me.
Bought 3 cups of coffee to actually get rid of sleepiness.
But Ben's grandmom came and gave me a meal again.
My heart ache to see such kindness showered upon me.
Please don't be too nice because the more I grow attached to something, the harder the dissapointment is.
That's why I don't really socialise all out unless there's a gurantee we can meet continuously.
Then, I told her that I felt that it wasn't right to take things for granted.
She said it's ok and said it was a blessing from God.
I wanted to cry there and then but I restrained myself from doing so.
Then, it rained.
I felt like going back before it became too heavy.
Justin offered to send me home and send me to W.H.C. on Sunday.
I was >.<
your too nice man.
But i don't want to trouble any one.
It may have been your way to help people
But it's my fault actually; my family's way of life
There's no free lunch in this world.
And this was my way of life
until you all proved me wrong.
My principle of life was wrong.
Such kindness do exist in this world.
Then, Evelyn said she can't stay for Youth.
Which she contradicted herself later. Lol.
I, then left.
It rained when I was half way there and I got drenched.
Yeah, that's punishment? For being rude?
I will take it for my misconduct and behaviour.
Took a cab and wondered.
What is this feeling that is inside me?
I prayed for an answer.
When I was there dazing off, it struck me that this feeling is real.
But, who am I kidding.
NO way it would happen.
Pessimistic attitude.
Realised this today. (MONDAY)
Was listening to "When I'm Gone" by Simple Plan.
Then this phrase caught my attention.
"Misery Needs Company, so So... Long when I'm Gone..."
Yes,I agree to that.
Misery needs company and that's me.
And So Long to all of you if I don't see you all next week and for some time.
Emo...
Then Eric spoke to me about Family, Associates and Kindness.
He made me realised this.
People who are kind are rare.
People who help you are good.
People help you when things are good.
But will people help you when they are facing problems themselves?
I said,"Yes"
He said,"Don't be naive"
Me -_-0
I constantly disobey my parents' by going there.
He asked,"Which is more important family or God?"
I was perplexed by that Question.
Couldn't answer.
HE asked me this,"You enjoy yourself with people from W.H.C. right?But if you were to choose between them and your family?
I replied,"We are one big family there.
His reply,"Blood is thicker then water for family but those people have no blood relation to you.
What can I do?
Disobey my family members? or Stop going to W.H.C?
We must honour our parents and God! as said by God.
But if you must choose between one side?
FollowedbyMisery
Good bye.
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