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i never felt this so fustrated before in my life...
i had to make the worse choice of my life ...

why is fate cruel to me?
i had to make a choice to stay with my good friends in MBS or to move away to other schools...

to take the exams in a louzy manner or to take it in an easier manner but get no results...

Why is fate exceptionally cruel to me is it because i have enjoyed life too much in the past or they want to test me...

to me it's neither;to me it's just a nightmare which will last forever
maybe if i just suddenly snap out of it i might be happy...

well the answer is NO

there is no such thing as a happy ending...

life is unfair, cruel and unpleasant which can only be handled with extreme cruelness, cunningly and definitely in the most tricky of all methods...

if i am given the choice i will never want to be a nice guy from the very beginning but i would have been the meanest of them all ; who knows what could have happen ; you might come to know me not in the PRS camp but in times square hanging out doing other stuff but leading an enjoyable life...

ha ha but all those remains as history as we move on in life ....

i conclude that life was never fair at the age of 7 because your loved ones get be taken away from you by God at His will Why?

then this year, God took away my inspiration by taking my dear teacher away ...
come on she was 43 ok and God just took her away...

her daughter was my school mate, there was nothing i can do but try to coax her...
i could never understand that pain but i will help her in any way i can...
she was in tears and she was ill yet God gave her such a hard time...
if life was fair, my teacher; a good teacher will not have past away but will still be here with us and we would have had a great time together...

then there was the second challenge in my life, it seems my deficiency in a type of antibodies is still there which cause me to be vulnerable to diseases and caused me to have allergies to certain types of delicacies..

if life is fair, i should have got those antibodies according to the doctor ; FYI i was born earlier by 2 months which means i was 7 month old when i was born... because of that i might be cursed with all these allergies and vulnerability to many illness....
now you all might know why i often fall ill easily...

yo my friends, you all read my blog so i hope you all might keep this as a secret because i want to be treated the same as every one not like a VIP due to illness now that will cause me to change school seriously...

T.T
my conclusion life is never fair

Ch1mo


means good bye T.T

...

I think i ve lost a fren an irreplacable fren if i could just turn back de pendulum n go back in time who knws what might de future be..

I m sry dat i broke our frenship but i was really in a bad month ...
my life was like a living HEll i wish i could juz dissapear from life n let all suffering end...

BUt T.T dere were mny of frens like U, Chai Voon, Pei gin n many more dat kept me going on in life
I think nvr in all my life can i ever repay u all 4 de wonderful frenship u all gave to me lor...

I had de plan of changing skool seriously
i wanna go 2 -----> Saujana or Sentosa; to enjoy a peaceful n relaxing life nt like stressful n boring MBS haiz...

But den the thought of leaving my frens behind kept me back i will miss dem i think... no i know so.... why r there so mny decisions in life cant we just live life like a rpg game world where everything is set n nothing changes... how cool will life be if there are no crimes, no rules n no such thing as skool where all people are free to do what ever they want * not talking bout communism ok... i m talking bout a happy, enjoying peaceful life like those of a remote area but with out skools, rules n crimes but with technollogy...

well if u ask me, i would rather stay at a rural area where it s peaceful compare to staying in the city... i will juz stay there n who knows go fishing, hunting or mayb do some lovely stuff dere..
* not now or in the prime of my life mayb when i grow older n with saving i might just do that ...
ha ha who knows... i actually thought of going to the seaside area to live like hawaii...
wow dat would be cool... open a restaurant dere n everyday u meet new people n best is u get to go surfing all day long...

Well a hope is a hope, like they say the bigger it is, the harder they fall
so the bigger my hope is the greater the sorrow is...

* any 1 notice i ran from the topic badly ha ha ha
reading one piece lor so suddenly ran from topic

if war kills life den dun make wars, juz make love




i will like to end my post wif this apology

I m sry 2 vin tsen n apollogy accepted

c ya tomolo in skool...


ch1mo

means gud bye

quoted from vin tsen; live life to de fullest...

Bye..

sunday was supposed to be a happy day ....

How did I fall from de ranks of great joy to pure sorrow ...

sorrowful day
my frens all went out wacth Movie in cinema, go outing wif frens n even enjoy the HEll out of dem selfs

i m sure/ mayb nt u r wondering wat i did at home...
BCP * blogging, chatting n promoting blog....
den i was bored so i called up a few of my frens

dis were the replies

Vivian : watching movie * waaa outing X cal me out...

MY cousin : Sry arr Kor went outing in de whole Kay L * treasure hunt wor.... n he had de nerve 2 tell me tomolo holiday 4 his skool

Anderson : hah a trusted fren, at 1st ask me dota i had to say no nt in de mood
den =___+" he ignored me n go dota dun wan reply me liao

Family : all go out in de morning thank god i didnt folo if nt my blog wont be updated liao didnt haf de HEart to leave dem alone after dey came back so stayed at home

Randy : ha ha lucky he visited my blog n left a message 4 me at d chat box ha ha loyal fren lyke de above meh* seriously nt G@y we went to de same PRS camp n became gud frens in a group 8 of us well i will soon haf to withdraw myself* hope nt, depends....

Alex (S'G) : ha ha another kind fellow 1st thing in de morning visited my blog, cant thank him enough but
mean fellow wont let me tagg him * wei ar let me tagg next time i buy u a meal...

Suit Yee : A nice gal but 2day x on9 dunno y lor 1st 2 visit my blog, congratz hope u n alex sty 2gether 4 eva, if he bully u tell me, i whack him gao gao... * hope i dun have 2..

Ern Khai : a very niceee fren .... went 2 de same BOSL camp n sat n slept bside me nt g@y every 1 had a roomie * thank god i didnt have 2 share with Alexander i will rather sleep outside den wif him...
Both of us nw emo MU losed .... huge fan of CR 7------> CR7 n MU 4 eva

Andrew : lyke dey say better late den nvr now as i update now onli he visit my blog cant blame de nvr inform him thanks man

c how miserable my life is , if it was nt becoz of some of them i will be in great pain thanks ya to those hu brightened my life

Ch1mo



means Gud Bye